A middle road, a tired night, spilling and spilling what you'd thought about and I hear what you say, but it seems so much harder to bear when I'm plugging my ears So much for being there, and holding hands Cursing doesn't rhyme, I'm sorry for your fears and I hear what you say, but it seems so much harder to bear when I'm plugging my ears You really seem to give a shit I'm leering your bedroom and I hear what you say, but it seems so much harder to bear when I'm plugging my ears Ohh ohh Your voice is so nice, please just read and I'll stay

I walked down the hill, and you said "Nothing's real" You looked me in the eyes and said, "I wanted something else I guess," I'll be there soon, I'll crack some eggs on the stove, and throw things around, and you, you love who you are, you love yourself, okay, well it's mesmerizing I want in, I want in I'm cracking up, I'm cracking up I want in, I want iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnn nnnnnnniiiii tnaw I, ni tnaw I pu gnikcarc m'I, pu gnikcarc m'I ni tnaw I, ni tnaw I She walked down the hill, and she took fifteen pills, and called him on the phone and said, "I wanted something else I guess" "I'll be there soon" he passed the lane, turned around, it's not so hard to lose Guess that's what they mean I'm by myself all night, The reverie

Here she comes again, waiting in the water yeah, where she hides behind the reef She's not saying where she's been, and she leaves it up to me to follow her or even find her, could you hold up a flag? How you doin now? How you doin now? Your face falls fresh to white, and I couldn't tell if you were even there I swear I swear I swear It's not my fault right my friends said stay away you're gone for 3 years and a day and I hardly got to know you anyway, anyway.. Here she comes again, smiling in my pictures yeah where she's stuck, looking at me. It seems like love, or something close but I could tell ya now That if eyes say it's love, just ask them then How you doin now? How you doin now? Do you recall the day we met? When we got too drunk and laughed over the Pho? I do I do I do Yeah it's in the past, doesn't make it trash Things like that don't come to pass, but if I'm being honest all that passed too fast

And you were thinking everything was alright, and you would tell me in the bathroom every night, that the wind was blowing out the door And you were flipping through the pages alright You folded up and threw the pages on the floor, saying "I can't take this anymore" That's all, that's all for now I'm jam on bread Until I'm dead That's all, that's all for now I'll be in my bed, in my head And you were thinking time was such a drag Decisions make you sick how can you get what you want? Get degree and get your briefcase and you're out the door? That's all, that's all for now I'm jam on bread Until I'm dead That's all, that's all for now I'll be in my bed, in my head And you were thinking everything was alright, And every day was a pretty rough fight, But I love you and I really wanna see you again

I won't relieve the pigeon's worried soul I miss the kids and running from Mom, the smile on her face The way I knew, the shape of the world, and how much it takes, to understand I'm 25 now but I am so young, beneath it I miss when you said "I came around, I heard your sounds and that's all I knew when cold winter blew and through and through, I took awhile there just staring at tiles, and seeing your face There's someone else now He reminds me of you, between us" I won't believe that everything's sold, your heart is gold and you found a bold one, cuz you're a stone The world unknown You're gonna find out, when you were so sweet, This is the way we're not gonna fight, cuz we are so sweet, beneath it

In the bag is a strawberry jam, a sandwich, a book, and a candle You bob left and then right with your step Your eyes are shut for the rhythm I reach up and around your shoulder and when I do you turn to look at me. I say "hey that night felt like we couldn't have known how to tie a knot 'round it all" I barely knew, I was resting upon it and I couldn't see you standing above me I collapsed and my eyes pressed into My hands and my nose ran down my lips When my eyes opened up, I was propped, The grass in the park with a blanket But no one could have seen me sobbing At least it seemed I was the only one there, there When you see a big part of your life Held / up / in A dark cloud, a tired wilting garden, it reflects through everything else And the sand comes rushing into what used to be a statue, a severed simple snake's head, and when the pain removes it I wanna hear the secret It's looking like a movie I said to play it backwards cuz the sneakers start to move me I'm walking on the old grass where the secret started blossoming A freaky footy entrance to a short and fancy ending

Aaaaaaaa I tell myself not to get invested in sentimentality or I'm infantilizing myself A home is something different You don't need to go anywhere to get there I write my wishes on the paper and tie it to the balloon It rises the weight off my shoulders With each step I forget one lie, I have oars now, I set the sails, I see where the smoke cloud rises to the sky I'm going in the direction I want to I can see myself bearing the weight and I know I can bare it all And bear a resemblance to the child I was yesterday (((I love you so much)))

Way down the lane there's a couple there of tv fame They trouble themselves for a simple sip celebri-tea Kids stuck, they know this, there's no biz like show-biz, and it's a small price to pay for their friends to look wide-eyed and make them feel real too real, yeah Take, take it down I'll topple myself if you make me feel a Clown, dropping off, like I do on the regular Watching people eye at my heels and my makeup helps me to feel real, so real, or whatever Let's make a deal that the poison is the poison and the knock on the door is the same fist that was there before and year after year I want to feel the back of your head as you lay your head down and roll into me touching down from the ufo, when the sun came down and the songs come slow a figure stepped out onto my front lawn, singing "ha ha ha you have not long" I said "what do you mean? I was not even talking to you. (sometimes separate, circumspect, the alien body) How did you hear me? I'm by myself with no possessions. (sometimes separate, circumspect, the alien body) "I was listening to your soul, these thoughts that you have, they hurt me too." (listen listen, come closer, nobody) "Get outta here" I said jumping up, "you go home now" (listen listen, come closer, nobody) post- "you're brave boy brave boy" milking what you know of them until you're left there deflated -flated Forget what you read about transforming for a second Keep me in your tea in the morning even eee hehehehe "able" , sipping down waiting waiting for a bed time bed time or a sigh that's fine and I sweat it enough

And then the light comes on, and the beams gigantic through the diamond wall and the rock in my hand won't do a thing you see cuz when your wings are out, you're scaring me Ah yeah Ah yeah And then the light comes on, and the thought runs through my covered head It's your hand on my shoulder stroking down my back, breaking all my legs Please let go of me again ((Do you believe Do you believe)) And I never saw her again And I never saw her again

I can't discuss anymore It Cuts all the circulation Off To my brain and there I'm left rea- -ding What will the eulogy say If I went out like this I went out like this I went out like this I went out like this I went out like this I went out like this I went out like this I went out like this You gave me a (Want to be a) Long playlist (Bigger lake) Bucket list (For God's sake) Drive up Mulholland yeah (No heart to mend and Listen to it sometimes, (No heart to break) Look I keep seeing you in photos I'm logging out again I'm logging out forever

There aren't any lyrics in this but you can sing whatever you want, maybe something about textiles or plaid or love